a craving to Blog

just recently, i have this great craving to blog: ) i just dont know why *and so i wonder*
hhms. but i do have something to thank God for; for two dear souls. these two has willingly accepted the invitation to the Edge for the past 3weeks. i really enjoyed their presence and even more, being able to see them at church. im just so thankful and grateful for them: ) i believe God has worked in their lives in a way or two and that they have received something as well. friendship, something very practical and applicable was preached. i had good responses from them and i was over the moon. woo-hoo!~ but that was kinda the jovial part of the story but i guess i should be more than contented for it.
just when hopes are high, something just crashed me hard on solid grounds. they wont be visiting with us anymore. i was totally devastated when i heard that. i was lost, dint know what to do. and for such a 'cry-baby me', it was a natural instinct that i begin crying. hhas. i know you would laugh and say what a 'weakling' i am. but the fact is, it meant alot to me. it may be ridiculous for you, yet it is something big for me. i have been facing discouragements after discouragements, i just dont seem to be able to pull myself apart from it. God, why is this so? sometimes, i cant help but feel like a failure. probably now is yet to be the harvest, i truly hope these souls would be reaped when the harvest is right.
so cheers! like i said, i am contented for the past few weeks, it is indeed more than enough: ) but i shant give up. i believe and pray for a breakthrough. AMEN!