im looking forward to the upcoming encounter, really looking forward to it. i've been to it already. its just the thought of winning my 5 to encounter that gets me jumping in excitement. i know i'll be able to do it. but that was in the start, really. now im so toatally discouraged and disappointed. im being turned down, even for that one soul that really gets me looking forward to- yihong. i actually broke to tears when she told me she couldnt make it and to take her out from the signup list or mark her as absent on the day itself. can anyone understand how i feel inside? i simply feel that all my hopes are dashed! yet i dont know who to talk to now that hilda is not here. even for weijian, he says he has to work and says that he doubts he will be able to make it. huiling rejected me hard enough. i just dont know. but thankfully junsheng has agreed to go. i know im happy even if it was just a soul.
even that im in the midst of all this discouragments, i know im going to stand firm. i know i will be able to do it! with God, all things are possible. im not going to take any of them off my list. im going to pay for it and pray that they will come. i know if i keep praying, i will see a breakthrough. i will defeat all spirits of discouragement. amen!
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